| being able to do whatever i want |
[22 Jan 2006|11:34am] |
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i look up to my boss at the dean's office. he is talented in so many areas, and when he decides he wants to do something, he does it.
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[04 Jan 2006|05:09pm] |
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im sick of everything. i hate this. i need to move out. nothing i do is ever fucking good enough.
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[03 Jan 2006|04:33pm] |
my mother is mad at me again.
i'll be lucky if i don't have to find a place to live very soon.
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| argh |
[01 Nov 2005|11:27am] |
so apparently christian hates me. yes the elections director HATES me. and it's based on me going up to the podium at the senate meeting over a week ago and saying that the elections SYSTEM sucks. not him. the system. i think he's a great director. i never said anything about him. i simply said that the system he is forced to use is not secure and is open for corruption. i said it was POSSIBLE for any past or future director to supply information to candidates. i didnt say that he's doing that. and i would have no way of knowing anyway. all i said was that the system sucked. i said there was POTENTIAL for corruption. and he hates me for it.
WHAT A FUCKING DOUCHEBAG.
i had no problem with him up until now.
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[25 Oct 2005|02:52pm] |
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i've decided i have an eating problem. i talked to samantha about this. if there is food nearby, i will eat it. that's just the way it is. lucky me, i have a fast metabolism. but i have the same disease as every other american. i'm a habitual eater. i'm addicted to food. eating makes me happy. it always lifts my spirits. i need to go to the gym.
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[16 Oct 2005|10:55am] |
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went to gwen stefani and the bravery last night. very fun. why does the fight always break out right next to me? anyway, it was great. saw circle k, two of my students, and peter.
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| ok me too |
[14 Sep 2005|10:10am] |
Favorite Celebrity Female: 
Favorite Celebrity Male: 
Favorite Artist: 
Favorite Band: 
Favorite Movie: 
Favorite TV Show: 
Favorite Best Friend: 
Favorite Memory with Friends: I'll add this later, it's not on this computer.
First Crush: 
First Best Friends: Again, at home.
Last Band Listened To: 
Last Love (before current): 
Last Movie I Saw: 
Last Person I Kissed: 
Something that Makes Me Angry: 
Something that Makes Me Sad: 
Something that Makes Me Happy: 
Something that Makes Me Laugh: 
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| i dont know if i posted this already |
[01 Sep 2005|09:19am] |
COM 216 - M&W 8:30a
COM 218 - T&R 10:00a
COM 262 - M 2:30p
ART 498 - T 7:00p
HON 400 - R 5:15
if you're in a class with me (and i don't know it already) tell me.
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[29 Aug 2005|08:07am] |
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i dreamt i was in a hurricane with jesse and then when i woke up i found out there really was a hurricane.
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| im stressed and school hasnt even started yet |
[27 Aug 2005|02:40pm] |
im totally freaking out. i had tons of posters to print and cut and now my knuckles are bruised and hurt bad. i feel really gross too. i dont even know what my schedule is. i should probably print it out. im not looking forward to bad parking. im just going to have to get rides to school so i dont have to worry about it. my finger is better. im excited about teaching my class but i havent met with thuri yet to plan it out. hopefully tomorrow.
and i havent even figured out my office hours. theyll probably be at night though b/c i work all day and go to school. suck.
i like talking to tahnee again. i missed that.
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| red handed |
[14 Aug 2005|08:29pm] |
i was making posters that you will see all over campus when the xacto knife slipped and now my left index finger looks like it has a cast on. no, you cant sign it.
i am going to chicago for a week with jess again. this time it will not be cold. he wants me to tell you that he loves me very much. but i will not.
dont tell him but i love him very much too. we are starting a design company. if you are interested in joining the team, let me know.
dumbledore dies on page 596.
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[05 Aug 2005|12:48pm] |
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i feel like i'm coming back into that time when i want to write all the time. i'm inspired by having read someone else's journal. someone who i admired through a chunk of my life and always thought was beautiful, even to this day. someone that does not realize it. and i want so badly to go back to that time and say so. i want to say 'god damn it you are beautiful!' and i want to be the friend i should have been and be honest and caring and not make stupid mistakes. i almost wish i could have been forgiven and such a good thing wouldnt have ended. i listened to country this morning b/c i was thinking about katie and how much fun we had as kids. and im thinking about sam and why a stupid one-sided argument can become something so big. i have good intentions. i always do. and i do my best to be good at my job and at my life. i havent had a close friend since high school. well, jesse is my close friend now. but he is different. i miss having a girl friend. someone to talk to about the things you cant talk to your boyfriend about. i miss being with tahnee and nansi and katie. these are the girls of my life. the ones who influenced me and helped me and guided me and made my life beautiful. and i wish time didnt tear us apart the way it does. i feel like i am only progressing into a world where the challenges become more challenging and the realizations become more shocking and the feeling of being out of control only increases because i do not know where i am going. and in order to keep myself from flipping out i research grad schools and internships in those areas and im trying to narrow it down and figure out where i want to go and how i will get there. planning all the time. just planning. and something is pulling me back to texas, so i look at texas. and i see ut austin. one of the best advertising grad schools in the nation, and proud of it too. they brag to hell about it on their website. and im convinced. i want to go there. gsd&m is there - one of the biggest ad agencies in the nation and they have internships and their internship application is amusing. i want to be there again. i want to see my friends and be in their lives. i hate not having that close group of friends. and when i find one here something always goes wrong. someone always goes wrong. i want things to seem so simple again. and time just keeps flying. i get farther and farther away and before i know i will be old and gray and wondering what could have been. i dont want to wonder. i dont want to wonder.
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| memories |
[04 Aug 2005|10:57pm] |
sometimes it just trips me out. matt got married and had kids, nansi was an alcoholic, and a host of other things that i just found out. i think its my duty to keep my mouth shut sometimes. but either way, i am shocked and surprised and i just feel so desperately like i want to go back to middle school and sit in the limestone breezeway with lupo and katie and emily and james and talk about harry potter. i miss those days even though sometimes i hated them so much. it scares me the way things ended up.
so i had four cavities filled today. my first cavities ever. im sore. the worst part is that my mouth is so small that they can never get in there to do anything, so it hurts like hell when they do. and the anesthesia is gross. that pina colada made my smile droop. how lovely. i couldnt sip from a straw and eating was a nightmare. just imagine how it will be with my wisdom teeth. i dont even want to talk about that.
so sam yelled at me yesterday. i thin it could have been a civil conversation, but she wouldnt allow it. so i decided that avoiding her so she could cool off was the best idea. i also decided that i would give her exactly what she wants. to rule the world. well, better yet, to have the office to herself. she can have my desk, my computer, i dont give a shit. i will work from home. i will come in to the office when i need to. i dont think its a big deal. shes my friend, i just dont think that working together is a good idea sometimes. i get over things pretty easily. its just that the yelling went too far. oh well. what im pissed off about is that all of a sudden everyone in the universe knew about it and was calling me to find out 'what happened.' nothing happened. she yelled at me, i didnt want to listen to it, so i hung up and moved my things so they wouldnt bother her anymore. whoop dee fuckin doo. the sky is falling.
regardless, ive gotten quite a bit of work done lately. my speech today went terrible. my next one will make up for it. i have a meeting and an interview tomorrow. and im tired.
and i wish i could write something creative right now. but this is the extent of it.
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| my teeth hurt |
[03 Aug 2005|11:12pm] |
i had two cavities taken care of today, and two will disappear tomorrow. my mouth hurts like fuck. i have to do a speech tomorrow and im totally not confident at all. someone called me and yelled at me for no apparent reason and was acting selfish. and i am very bothered by it. i try my best to do a good job and make sure that everyone else is taken care of too. but that's never enough. so i will no longer be working in my office. i will work from home. and occasionally come in to print things and have meetings. miss piss can have her trophy back and i can have my peace and quiet. and honestly if anyone has a problem with me they can fire me. i honestly do not give a shit. i would quit right now, but i am more considerate than that and i enjoy what i do when people don't insist on pissing me off. im tired of you shitting on me.
p.s. it will be grand fun carrying several large heavy books from my office back to my car tomorrow. not to mention my personal belongings, supplies i will be needing, and anything else i dont want used. what a fucking nightmare.
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| my life fucking sucks |
[19 Jul 2005|10:07am] |
well.. only the parental part.
so much for my vip passes to street scene. my parents dont think im old enough to go.
so much for the csun retreat to san diego this weekend. my parents dont think im old enough to go.
so much for driving a car at night. my parents dont think im old enough to do that anymore.
so much for staying out late. my parents dont think im old enough for that. if i ever do it again, i lose my car.
i didnt do anything wrong!
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| correction |
[04 Jul 2005|01:55pm] |
ok so now i do see whats so great about weezer, but its only for a couple songs. the super emo ones i wasnt really into.
but jesse and i are totally starting a band.
and i totally started writing a song last night with the lyrics 'im so emo im so cool' - oh it was awesome. we will write a song about avril lavigne.
HAHAHAHAHAHA
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| rhcp & weezer |
[03 Jul 2005|02:03pm] |
excellent concert. vegas definitely did not give us a shitty show. i had an awesome time. except these assholes started a mosh pit while whatshisface belted out 'buddy holly' - this makes no sense to me. and there was a little five year old girl right next to them. those assholes. then this jerk stepped on my foot twice! so i punched him and he kept giving me weird looks. fucker.
so i limped through the whole thing but i totally had an awesome time during the peppers part.
oh and that opening band - TOTALLY SUCKED. worst band ever. these fat 40 year olds who never heard of jobs before. seriously, when youre that old and people still dont give a shit about you, give up! get a job! jesus. and then he's like 'ok one last song' and everyone cheers b/c they wanna get rid of them and hes like 'thanks.' and everyone's like well no that's not what we meant.
and those stupid punk kids who dont shower. whats that about? i was punk once. and i showered! ugh. the girl next to me had to stand next to this guy who smelled like shit. i felt so bad for her. we both looked at each other like EWW.
anyway. im dwelling too much on the bad. they made me throw my towel away and when i argued with them the guy yelled at me! what an asshole. but i loved the concert. i dont see whats so great about weezer but i loved the peppers and hooray for good concerts.
btdub, i have 4 vip passes to street scene in san diego. i get to chill with the killers. did i mention that already? im just super excited.
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| the worst day |
[29 Jun 2005|09:09am] |
this is horse shit. my computer fried just like it did when i first bought it. i took it to fry's and paid 70 bucks for them to look at it. they said it needed a new motherboard and power supply b/c the power supply fried the motherboard. they said b/c i had receipts and they were under warranty they would exchange them free of charge, but i would have to pay 180 for labor. well i decided against having them install it b/c i know how to do it myself. when i got there they said they wouldnt exchange the parts b/c it has been 7 months, and they can only do that within in one month of purchase. so jesse and i argued with them... or rather jesse argued with them and they agreed to exchange the motherboard, the most expensive thing. so i went and bought a powersupply for 50 bucks, hooked it all up, and it doesnt work. the assholes lied. so i want my money back. im returning the power supply, and i want my 70 back for a mis-diagnosis. my dad checked everything. i did nothing wrong. and on top of that, my video card supposedly supports directx9, the box says so, but it doesnt. so i want my money back on that too. so today my dad and i will go to frys and fight until we get whats ours. those fucking assholes. not to mention they overcharged me for my case when i bought it (which i didn't notice until last night). then last night i cut my foot on the tile in my bathroom (its broken). this morning i tripped and spilled orange juice all over my sheets. i called in sick to work. today really fucking sucks.
i still have to pay summer tuition. i interviewed a guy (good interview, unskilled, generally bullshitting me) and a girl to be my assistant (good interview, skilled, has the time, etc). i still have to work out the details with one other applicant (who hasnt technically applied yet..but wants to).
we get polos this year from csun. im so excited. a polo with my name on it. teehee.
oh and apple asked me to be the unlv student rep - paid position, free powerbook, software, internet, etc. i might shit my pants.
i need to get dressed b/c im updating in my underwear. and im cold. and my foot hurts.
oh and i live near school now. spencer and eastern. and soon sam will live just down the road.
i went shopping this past weekend at boulevard. saw some faces i didnt expect, and some i didnt want to see, some i knew would be there, some i havent seen in forever, some that made me uncomfortable. we should go to the meadows mall from now on.
on a lighter note, i have two new dresses. and a new skirt, and some new pants, and new underwear (not the ones im wearing right now).
last weekend was tony curtis' 80th birthday. i was one of the people trying to sell his shitty artwork. didnt sell anything. they refused to give me a nametag, but at least shelley berkeley was there. and jamie lee curtis and some other people that were famous and that ive seen but i totally didnt recognize. schwarzeneggar skipped out. how rude.
for our anniversary, jesse took me on the gondola ride at the venetian. 'twas romantic. the dude sang to us and it was lovely. i have a nice picture of it.
oh and jesse and i (since we are fabulous photographers or rather jesse is) will be doing a picture of the week thing.
http://jesseandmichelle.myphotoalbum.com
there's nothing there yet, but today i will probably add something. or tomorrow. we'll see.
i have plenty of pictures to put up but the lack of computer is kind of an issue.
in other news. we will be having a director's retreat to san diego next month. the whole weekend sleeping on the beach. the nevada triennial is also next month, jesse is in the show, so we will probably go to reno to see it. also dean got me jesse and two of our friends tickets to see the killers in san diego at that big festival thing. the whole weekend in san diego with the killers. how sweet is that? ronnie is a personal friend of dean's, and a very nice one at that. this is the awesomest thing ever. i can't wait. but we still have to book tickets.
more later.
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